Heaven and Hell

This was one hell of a day. I have never had such a bad time in the office ever since........ ever since I started working. The organization was totally void of standards. Or should I say that people who are "running the show" are totally ignorant of procedures and processes. They all think that their way of doing things is the right way. But we all know there are many ways to do a thing right, right? But what we should aim for is doing the right things right, the right way, all the time. That's my standard of quality. Unfortunately, the organization I am now doesn't seem to be concerned with this. Maybe it's time to move on.. if you can't beat them, remember, the grass will be greener on the other side. :)

Anyway that was hell. But the past few hours have been heaven. If there were a more contrasting comparison than heaven and hell, then this will be it. All stress was just wiped away. All worries are forgotten. Somehow, I knew I needed this moment. I'm sure am glad I was granted it. :)

Living in the moment

It's May 20, 2010 4:40AM now and I'm at the office. I'm at my 22nd waking hour. I'm bored and definitely sleepy.

I've been reading thru a book called Don't Sweat the Small Stuff. I've just finished a chapter, if you consider 3 pages a chapter, called living in the present moment. I guess, the bottom line of this point is to embrace the present. Live on and in what is happening now. Don't miss out on life. Carpe diem.

I have recently been in such a moment where I had to choose to live in the present moment or not. I could let all my worries for the future stop me from doing what I wanted. Past experiences wanted to paralyze me from moving forward. All sorts of dire consequences flooded my mind and made my knees shiver. The black and white of "righteousness" was tearing me apart. Thoughts of a "better" way to proceed leading to a "better" result enticed me.

Nevertheless, I don't even remember considering all these. I plunged head first and tried to live in the moment. That moment is probably the best of my life. Never have I felt so alive than that moment. A moment, so fleeting but so real and so precious, that I will treasure and will forever remember.

After living in the moment, what happens when or after the moment has passed? Should we allow reasoning, logic, and rationality to override the decisions we made while living in the moment? Should we again subject ourselves to the judgement of perceived norms?

Or can we go on and stay in the moment forever? Oh! What I would give for that.. !

Can't sleep

2:30 AM, and I still can't get my sleep.

Some thoughts are running through my head and I can't seem to settle my mind down. Or maybe I just don't want to stop replaying those thoughts in my head over and over again.

It was a nice cool weather out there tonight; I finally felt it and enjoyed it walking the streets. Saw the Christmas decors too. Funny, I seemed to appreciate it more tonight.

Christmas spirit? Maybe. I don't know. What I do know is I'm feeling good. Where that will take me? Who knows?! I'll just enjoy the ride. Maybe that's why I don't want to sleep and let this feeling pass.

Internet Anonymous

I just finished watching an NBA game live online. I totally enjoyed watching the Houston Rockets vs New Orleans Hornets streaming thru the internet.

At first, I was doubting I could enjoy a game thru this media. But, Wow! Hurray for the wonders of the internet. It was totally entertaining.

Now, I also got to know another live stream of the Philippines TV channel GMA-7. Not that I am watching it. But it's cool to get in touch with news, shows, and whatever is being shown in the Philippines live.

I'm Adrian and I'm addicted to the internet.

Life is Beautiful. Life is short.

It's been a very strange day. Last night, I got an SMS message from a team member telling me that he won't be able to come in to work. His sister had just passed away.

I'm not good in this kind of situation. Didn't know how to react, or what to say to comfort this friend. I just told him to not worry about work and take a needed time off.

This guy is just 23 or 24 years old. His sister, the eldest, I would guess won't be older than 38, maybe 35.

And I'm 30. What happened really struck me hard. I can feel myself getting old. hahaha! I notice my metabolism getting slow. I also notice physical changes in myself that are making me different from when I was 25, 26, 27, or even 28. Or maybe I'm just paranoid.

Still, what happened really showed me that our life is so short and so fragile. I shouldn't just let a day pass by. Why can't I get myself off the bed and away from the TV? Why can't I wake up early to enjoy the calm, cool morning breeze? Why can't I spend as much time with the people I love? Why can't I just do what I want to do and enjoy every minute of my day?

Maybe I should. Maybe I should enjoy every minute of my life starting now. But at the same time, I should pass each day in a meaningful manner.

Enjoy life. Carpe diem. Show the people we love how much we do love them.

Cisco Telepresence

I joined a proposal pitch to a client from somewhere in Europe which was conducted through Cisco's Telepresence technology....

Man! That is one cool techno stuff! Have you heard of that stuff? Well, it's like common video conferencing technology, but a lot lot cooler. The images of the people you're talking to are fed into a 3-panel 42+inch LCD screen monitor. and you can actually see their whole room! And that room would look exactly just like the room you're in. And the table they're seated to looks exactly just like yours. It would come out like you're just sitting around the same table with them. Totally awesome!

No lag. No delay. Their mouth is in-sync with the words you're hearing. When you plug your laptop into the projector, the same image on your PC is fed to the network and their own projector would show the same image. Amazing!

Totally enjoyed the meeting. No idea what was discussed.. just had a good time with the telepresence thingamajig!

Supervision

I'm getting a lasik procedure done on me and be getting 20/20 supervision in a couple of days. Hopefully procedure goes smoothly.

Finally, I got to save enough to pay for this procedure. My vision is not that bad. I think I have around 300 - 400 "grades" or whatever you call that measure for vision impairment. I can still see objects even without my glasses. The eye center is also giving out discounts. So, I just decided that this could be the right time to do it.

Excited! My friend and my sister keep on telling me that this is a good investment. Oh well, I at least won't be burdened by bringing along my contact lens, contact lens solution, and those stuffs when travelling. I won't again forget about putting on my contact lens for a basketball game. No more going to the mall just to buy those contact lens solutions.

Wish me luck! This could just change my luck! hahahaha!